“I’m doing this wrong, aren’t I?”
You should have said that and tried to salvage what was left of the night. You should have never let go of that hand. You should have slowed your pace and tried to elongate the time spent walking sidewalk after empty sidewalk.
Damn it, you should have run after, and kissed right then and there, instead of walking head down the other way. You missed your chance and you’ll regret it forever. Why did you have to over-think everything?
“I like you the first time I met you, and I’d like to give us a try.”
There. How hard was that to say? You’ve uttered more complicated phrases under your breath, and without even batting an eyelid; what’s stopped you from saying those little words?
You are a chicken, a damned fool, and a coward. And you wasted far too many moments – far too many chances – trying to be “just friends” when in fact you wanted something more.
Now it’s gone. Now it’s over.
Now you have to move on and not wallow like the last time.
Now you have to think forward, instead of thinking “what if.”